JimAndJak2005

Oblivious by JimAndJak2005, literature

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Oblivious

Sometimes, I think of her. Of our short lived moments and our long lived communications. I really don't know what it was that drew me to her. Maybe it was that she seemed and was different than everyone else. Maybe I was longing to pull myself out of the self destruction that I was falling into. All I know is one thing: I will never forget her. As I write this, it is not with any sense of regret. It is not really with any hope that she may read it... For all I know, she may never know how I truly felt. How I felt lost like a little child, looking for someone or something to hold on to, to give me reason. Heh... Thinking like that, I almost f

Intentionally Unnamed by JimAndJak2005, literature

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Intentionally Unnamed

My mind is beleaguered... Is that even a word? I know it sounds right... Anyways, I can't help but feel trapped by old notions whilst trying to pursue this forwardly direction. I pray to the gods of old and work to try and make things right, but it is like my life is laughing in my face and telling me "No." I am not sure how to feel. I try to laugh instead of cry. Sometimes I wonder if he felt this way when he was my age, maybe younger. I know he had her and she stood by him until the one fateful day, he made his mistake. I know he loved her and never meant to do anything like that, but even now, years later, I can still hear that dreadful s

Left Behind From Suicide by JimAndJak2005, literature

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Left Behind From Suicide

It's like you just stood there and exploded right in front of me, leaving the mess for me to clean up the best of you, I am so confused that I don't know what to do. I can't believe that you would just let go so easily and leave this world and me in the vain notion of being free to chase a dream that cannot be. The song says that suicide is painless. Whoever thought that was brainless or never had to see this. It hurts the ones around you and then some, especially the ones who couldn't come to the realization of what you were going through. So what can you do? One thing that I can say is that we all love you, and would rather not see you have

To a Friend by JimAndJak2005, literature

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To a Friend

Breathe... It is simply the most beautiful sound that I hear when I wake up and you're next to me. I watch as you sleep tenderly on my chest, wondering what it is that you are dreaming of. I know that you might dream of him or you might dream of me. It does not really matter, just as long as I get to hear each breath you take because you never know which day will hold the last one. I don't know if it is obvious how much you mean to me, but being there for you brings me a solace that I've not experienced before. No amount of drinking or smoking could ever bring the peace that you bring, just being with you and watching you. I gently get up so

Breathe by JimAndJak2005, literature

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Breathe

Holding my breath Like there's nothing left I'm on this quest To beat the rest Only find that I have nothing less. It's like my best could never be good enough Like my cause could never be just So leave me in the rain to rust While you look at me in disgust. All this time I've left to waste, So I could try to get a taste. And all the times my bloodlines race. Now I sit here disgraced. As I try to rise only to fail. And here I thought you were frail. So now I sit here in my mental jail. Yelling, screaming, trying to exhale This breath I've held in. It's where I begin to realize my sin that I put my trust in. I lay here and

Lighter Side of a Darker Heart by JimAndJak2005, literature

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Lighter Side of a Darker Heart

Twilight Lovers : The Lighter Side of a Darker Heart It all began with a promise, Made to you by me. That I would always try And you would always be. You are my reason to live, My one and only light. You brought me out of darkness And made me see things right. I only wish that I could repay you For the kindness that you gave me. I don't know how it happened That you were there to save me. I almost lost you once, But now I'm here to stay. I will always love you Until my dieing day. As we sit before the sunrise, We'll watch in all it's glory. Let it be known to everyone, This shall be our story. Dedicated to my Mockingbird

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One Tin Soldier: My Army Story

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The parchment felt smooth under her fingertips... it should, for by now she'd traced the edges enough, deep in contemplation of the note's implications. "Be mine." ...that was all, no signature, nothing more - two simple words, and the remnants of the scent left from the blooming rose that had come with it... now fading, but fresh in her memory. How many others had received a note like this? She knew who had sent it, of course, but the lack of signature could imply a lack of responsibility taken... she knew she wasn't his only playmate. Was it worth analyzing what it meant? Maybe he really was fond of her... maybe he wanted more. Or maybe h

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One Tin Soldier: My Army Story by JimAndJak2005, literature

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One Tin Soldier: My Army Story

Hmm... Let's start where all things should. The begining. Day one processing. Geez oh petes do I remember that. We'd ridden in on a plane and had to take a ride on the bus to my official first army station: 95th Adjuant General. "Soldierization starts here." There were some good and some bad times. First was paperwork, though. To those of you with sensitive hands, do not join the army. You will find out the meaning of paperwork. That's what most of processing is, between paper work and recieving your clothes an stuff. Also, there are some things you should remember. Listen to your NCOs (i.e. Sargeants and Drill Sargeants). They do not like t

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About JimAndJak2005

Oct 24
United States
Deviant for 19 years
www.freewebs.com/darkblade47
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Current Residence: somewhere i don't belong
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Large
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite photographer: Me, Lasindra, Ninja Kat, and Mona Kitty
Favourite style of art: Graphic Design, Anime, and anything with Demons, Dragons, or Wizards
Operating System: Windows Vista
MP3 player of choice: Sony Walkman w/ Speaker!
Shell of choice: my own shell? sweet, never knew i had one
Wallpaper of choice: umm... toss up between crimson red, midnight blue, emerald green, and just plain black...
Skin of choice: My own, thanks.
Favourite cartoon character: Goofy... if you got a problem with him, you got a problem with me. Same with Jack Skellington.
Personal Quote: Why didn't the wall jump out of the way? It must hate me or something.

Favourite Visual Artist

Josh, Cajun, Ninja Kat, Glue

Favourite Movies

too many

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Ozzy, LP, Zeppelin, Heart, Eminem is ok... Basic Metal and Old Rock and some, but not a lot of Pop

Favourite Writers

same as above

Favourite Games

Kingdom Hearts, Halo 2, Fable, StarCraft, Diablo... too many

Favourite Gaming Platform

Computer, Wii, PS2

Tools of the Trade

Pencil, Notebook, mp3/video player, and Most definitely, My Heart... and now, my not so new Laptop!!

Other Interests

art, friends, D&D, being myself, and staring at the walls that hate me... lol

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May 15, 2012

Not sure...

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I sit here and think about a book I read and love. The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. More over, I remember the poem that a friend of mine read that initially drew my interest to the book. It was a poem about a little boy who wrote some poems throughout his life and the things that happened at each stage of life as he wrote them, ultimately up until the time of his suicide. Now, mind you, I am nowhere near that stage. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not one to intentionally cut myself or try to take my life. There are times when I accidentally stab or cut my hands or body while messing around with a knife, but never anyt

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Mar 30, 2012

Lost and Confused...

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Feeling a little out of myself. Not sure how to process things emotionally and/or physically. Let me start off by saying this much. My fiance and I have come to the realization that we are swingers, of a sort. Now, on that note, factor in that she is playing with a couple, the lady in which I had a previous relation with obscurity in detail and her boyfriend that she ended our relation to be with. I am out of the loop with good reason, partially by choice, partially because it makes things easier. Here's where things ultimately get fuzzy. As of yet, I really have yet to find anyone other than my one guy friend to play with, whom it's been a

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May 7, 2011

The Final Costs...

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So, after a very long day, I have had a lot of time to think things over. Of course, people are celebrating the fact that the US Military finally silenced one of our worst enemies in what seems like years. While everyone celebrates, I can't help but think of how much we lost because of this one person and their ideas as well as how much things have changed over the years. I mean, shoot. At one point in time, I was enlisted into the military. If it weren't for the fact that I lied about my medical conditions, I may have been over there. That doesn't really bug me so much as the rest of it. Granted, I think if I were over there, I may have seen

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thanx for the watch!

No prob! I like a lot of your works.

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Mar 29, 2011

aww nice to hear X3!!!

RayvensEye

hey there just saw on *ceilidhofonea piece she did for you and thought I would come and say hi

And yay for Foamy

Well hello there. Yeah, I like Ceilidh's work and have had a couple of works done from her.

Took a look at your profile, some very interesting photography and work. I am curious as to how you eked out the Ichigo. I like it.

RayvensEye

Thanks for the watch and favorite and as for the Ichigo photo I just took it it was just a lucky shot that one.

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